Today was just one of those days where I really felt my age. Granted, I'm still mostly young (29) but I was browsing through DA, all of my inbox, sent messages.. and thought of how the time has flown by between from when I first ventured onto the internet into the here and now.

I have made and lost some very wonderful friends on the internet. On DA, on WoW, from various sources. Some I still speak with, years and years later, and others are like painful splinters.. still there, but you can't get a good enough grip on them to make it feel better. So instead the splinter festers and you pick and pick at it praying for relief. Where is the relief?

Looking back, I can see where I was disappointed a few times myself and wonder why it never dawned on me that it was okay for me to feel disappointed. That I should have said something. That perhaps these downfalls are not solely upon my shoulders. Then I get angry, because wherever the blame, it's a Goddamn fucking waste of energy to remain upset/angry/hurt for so long. Over a misunderstanding at that.

So I'm letting it go. Here and now. I didn't mess up again when I tried. I messed up when I kept trying.