It wasn't always with bitterness that I felt such things. It was once, some time ago, with a bleak optimism that I viewed the world. That was in the before. Before the call, before the illness, before the diagnosis, before the sheer panic contained within the "what if?". It was a little over a year and a half ago. Decisions best left unmentioned had left you in a dark place. Against your will. It was with despair that we all prayed that this - this would be your rock bottom. This would be the time when you finally stopped, took pause, and thought about where your life was going, what was happening with your children, that you would finally grow up. Four years older than I chronologically, but still very much that scared, lost, angry little boy of four decades ago. I didn't desire for it to be in the words of Maynard, that it was "a little bit too much to expect from the wounded "- and yet we did. We did expect for you to come out of that hole and be better. To need to do better.
I recall the days,
the dreams of yesterday
when we spoke so free.
Those days are gone.
Perhaps it was the distance
the silence that prevailed
The mistakes became too much
mine and yours.
There's no more laughter here
no more understanding and care
Like a shadow you've drifted
further away than I could reach
I can not coax the smiles
I can not be the same
Change became our enemy
It was a friendship of bliss
an awakening
but the friendship has faded
leaving only a memory
Not a day goes by
when I don't think of you
and wonder if you were here
just what we would do
Would we bathe in the sun
and speak our minds
like our mothers before us
while the cars go by
Would we tend to our children
to Twin Lakes we'd go
to swim in the waters
and ponder a chidhood gone
Not a day goes by
when I don't think of you
Would we still be friends
or would the years have been cruel
Day by day
I miss your easy smile
the tone of your laugh
I miss your wiles
Not a day goes by
When I don't think of you
But up there, I know
You're thinking of me too.
Entering the swirling vortex from Shattrath City into the Undercity, Lyvia let out a long sigh. She'd just finished scouring the countryside of Nagrand, again..for Pyrenus. But it's as if he fell through the world into a dark void she can't reach. Lyvia is worried.
Giving her nod of greeting to the mushroom vendor, she half smiles shooing him away while insisting that she has no need for the spores he sells. Her stomach rumbles as she walks, telling the true tale of her hunger, but food is the least of her worries. Bypassing the auctioneer's boxes and the small crowd that surrounds it, her head is like a bobber on a string, nodding to this
It wasn't always with bitterness that I felt such things. It was once, some time ago, with a bleak optimism that I viewed the world. That was in the before. Before the call, before the illness, before the diagnosis, before the sheer panic contained within the "what if?". It was a little over a year and a half ago. Decisions best left unmentioned had left you in a dark place. Against your will. It was with despair that we all prayed that this - this would be your rock bottom. This would be the time when you finally stopped, took pause, and thought about where your life was going, what was happening with your children, that you would finally grow up. Four years older than I chronologically, but still very much that scared, lost, angry little boy of four decades ago. I didn't desire for it to be in the words of Maynard, that it was "a little bit too much to expect from the wounded "- and yet we did. We did expect for you to come out of that hole and be better. To need to do better.
Distrustful-
This wasn't what I chose
His gaze, when tearing off my clothes
The words he breathed-
freezing me
That bastard brought me down- to my knees
And then he touched me
As I've never been before
He took me!
Impaled himself deep within my soul
Besieged!
Yeah, I was left unwhole
Violated-
Yeah, who could want me now?
So hated-
The way he brought me down
Despising you-
it's what I'll do
Because he touched me
As I've never been before
Yeah he raped me
F*cked me like a whore
Still besieged!
Not where I want to be
Forgetting-
Oh how the years have passed
Unforgiving-
Oh how I've fallen on my *ss
Can't lock the dre
There you are again looking self assured
With your pirate clothes, such an impish flirt
Always, you make me want to smile
and scream-
so many,
inane things- like
It just isn't not funny
Now gimme some honey, Honey
You get me so frastrated
flubbergated
wouldn't dare be irritated
cause-
At the end of the storm its sunny
And I hope that you'll still be around
Dizzily 'round my rain cloud
Can't keep myself from being tongue tied
Hollaring aloud, I can feel alive
The words just take wing and fly right out
Insert foot,
into open mouth
Cause-
It just isn't not funny
Now gimme some honey, Honey
You get me so flastrated
frubber
Say you'll stay with the river as it flows
Heed my call, may I ease your restless soul
Whether it's wrong- it could be right
Just please I beg,- give me this night
Because I know someday
Possibly you'll feel the same
Someday, I won't be to blame
One day, you'll allow yourself to see
The truth of what you mean to me
You are the sun which bathes my face
You are my roots, my home- my place
Shelter me as the walls fade away
Just please- give me this day
Because I know someday
Possibly you'll feel the same
Someday, I won't be to blame
One day, you'll allow yourself to see
The truth of what you mean to me
It's scary I know
trusti
Not Enough
By: Lexi Takasis
Always, it seems to be the same,
For always, I seem to be to blame.
And all day I sit deep in regret,
For tangling you within my net.
Like a curse,
I feel this need to do, anything to keep me with you.
What's worse,
is how you say:
"Lexi, stop acting this way."
Well whether you like it or not,
Lately you're all that I've got.
I'm sorry if things have been rough,
Apologize if I'm not enough.
Like an addiction,
You seem to be, everything that I believe.
No expectations,
And yet still you say:
"Lexi, don't be that way."
You frown when I laugh
You tell me to try
Get mad when I play
Upset when I c
Oh Lord, look what I've done to me
Lord, it's a wretched sight to see
Oh Lord, just look where I have been
Understand Lord, this need to give in
Just let him sleep, Lord
So that I can be away
Let him dream, Lord
Slumber of sweet and better days
Let him believe, Lord
That my conscious sleeps
Do not let him know, Lord
That I wish to weep
Oh Lord, look at what I'm about to do
All in vain, Lord, see what I'm going through
All that's left Lord, is the drink I crave
Forgive me Lord, as my will begins to cave
And let him sleep--
So that I can be away
Let him dream--
Slumber of sweet and better days
Watch over him, Lord
While his
Lazarus waves crash over the rocks
Echoing a faint heartbeat giving new life,
New futures, to a thumping outcrop untouched
By any but the hand of corrosion.
Cells divide and push out copies,
Upon copies,
Upon copies,
Until something resembling life
Breaches forth with a glimmer of hope
Bestowed upon a shy gray world
In to arms of both the strong and the gentle.
Rebuilding in palpitating rhythms,
The jagged shore quakes,
The ocean froths up a soothing mist
That lays down gently a prismatic embrace
Of true love and cautious optimism.
Dear lava wells forth and down the twisted edifice
Smoothing out the twisted scars,
To leave a
Entering the swirling vortex from Shattrath City into the Undercity, Lyvia let out a long sigh. She'd just finished scouring the countryside of Nagrand, again..for Pyrenus. But it's as if he fell through the world into a dark void she can't reach. Lyvia is worried.
Giving her nod of greeting to the mushroom vendor, she half smiles shooing him away while insisting that she has no need for the spores he sells. Her stomach rumbles as she walks, telling the true tale of her hunger, but food is the least of her worries. Bypassing the auctioneer's boxes and the small crowd that surrounds it, her head is like a bobber on a string, nodding to this
Current Residence: Azeroth Favourite genre of music: Insert genre 'here'- depends on my mood Operating System: my putt putt puter MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player (as it's the only one I have) Shell of choice: uh..? Wallpaper of choice: My WoW screenshots, or LazyMuffin's Skin of choice: my own, unless you're offering a loaner Favourite cartoon character: Cripple Boy and Chocolate Man by LazyMuffin Personal Quote: Suck it up and take it like a man!
Favourite Visual Artist
bionic7, lazymuffin
Favourite Movies
any of the LoTR or Harry Potter movies. Also love the Phantom of the Opera movie
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Hurt
Favourite Writers
I love Anne Rice and R.Feist
Favourite Games
World of Warcraft Ftw!
Favourite Gaming Platform
Computer
Tools of the Trade
I has no tools
Other Interests
reading, writing, all kinds of music, and of course, online rpg
For those few whom I spoke with on here, just wanted to say goodbye. I've enjoyed everyone's art over the years but life keeps me too busy to really keep up with everyone. I wish everyone the best!